This. This exactly. I honestly just want to look my best because you know what? I have chub in certain areas that if I got rid of would make me feel ten times sexier.
I’m feeling pretty low now. My girlfriend signed on skype and was like “oh hi.” then signed off without saying anything. She isn’t replying to any of my texts either. It’s hard enough she has her own job now and our schedules conflict but when she’s finally on and is like.. there it’s so exciting. It was almost like a tease… I feel just like… disheartened by that. I thought she was getting on to talk to me. Apparently not..
I’m starting to have those cravings again now more than before in light of certain “events” for that pudding cup. : |
Time to tackle some green tea and distract myself by watching Revenge or doing homework instead of wallowing in self-pity.
It’s hard for me to go a day without good starchy carbs whereas it’s easier for me to pass on the sugar and show a little self-restraint. Today I switched things up a little because I had to - for my work situation anyways. For breakfast I was running late so I didn’t have time to cook the egg whites so I just had oatmeal and half a bannana. To replace the eggs I had a glass of juice though just to get the calories in for some extra energy. At work there was really nothing I could do since I can’t bring my own food. I had a California Krunch bagel which is a multigrain bagel with oats and honey on top. On the bagel I had some hummus, cucumber, pumpkin seeds, and tomato. Then I had some carrot sticks on the side. To be completely honest, I didn’t stick to what I was going to do which was to drink ONLY water and to not snack at all. I need to show more restraint on that next time - I had a sip of some chai tea latte because I wanted to see what it tasted like and one chocolate rugula. It wasn’t that much but still it probably added together like 50-60 calories? I am proud of myself though because towards the end of my shift I was DYING for a coffee but I thought of all of my goals and showed restraint. :)
Then I came home and ate dinner according to the blogilates meal plan. In addition though I wound up eating two of the Pillsbury crescent rolls my mom made for me. The house smelled like them when I came home and I couldn’t resist. I calculated the caloric intake on myfitnesspal and all together it came to 200 which wasn’t as bad as I was anticipating. Still, I wasn’t able to exercise today (aside from my work). Tomorrow I plan on going to the gym though.
In any event, the issue I’m having now is not going downstairs to have dessert “aka” a chocolate pudding serving (Jello insta-pudding). I figure since I gave in to the crescent rolls and since the juice I had this morning had like 20-25 grams of sugar in it I owe it to myself to not cave in and eat it. If anything, I’ll reach for some rasberries or, if I must, Greek yogurt. I’m trying to stay away from too much dairy.
Gonna have oatmeal this morning. :P Yum. I usually put a pinch of cinnamon in mine.
I’ve always loved Miley Cyrus’s style. The problem is I’ve never been able to pull it off the way she does because of my tummy bulge etc.
I just weighed in this morning. After yesterday I was honestly dreading hopping on the scale because I didn’t think I’d get the results I wanted. :/ So then I hopped on and guess what? I’m 142.6 lbs now. o-o It doesn’t feel like it though. I feel like if anything I look more bloated still than I did yesterday. Maybe it’s just all in my head? x.x Or maybe my scales broken? >___> …. idk. Either way I’m still going to keep with it. :[ Sooner or later results are sure to turn up, right?
I worked out today for 30 minutes on the treadmill and burned 200 calories! I was on the fence about going but I’m glad I did. On the other hand, I didn’t do so well with after dinner munchies.. I forgot about the 6th meal as being a yogurt and originally was going to switch it for chocolate pudding (I had a chocolate craving and figured that was better than like chocolate chip cookies or something) but after I ate the chocolate pudding (one serving) I caved and ate a piece of Panera Baguette my mom had brought home with her. I feel bloated now and cross with myself for letting my cravings get the best of me.
Does anyone have any cures or suggestions for late night munchies? Honestly, that’s been one of my biggest problems in the past and I don’t know how to get past it. I always think “one piece of bread won’t kill me” but then later winds up being my hinderance for not getting to where i ultimately want to be.
This morning I was 143 lbs (point like 3 or something i forget). I wanted to be at 143 exact or 142 by tomorrow but I think after eating that slice of bread that’s unrealistic. Also, I don’t think I drank as much water as I should have.
Tomorrow I’m going to try to do better; however, I work and can’t bring my own food so I’m going to have to work with what I have (fyi I work in a bagel cafe that sells sandwiches soups salads etc.). Sigh.
Already feeling like a failure after day one. This isn’t a good sign. :/ I’m worried because tomorrow I work 10:30-7. I can’t go to the gym in the morning like I originally had intended on doing. I wanted to wake up early and go with my mom but she needs the car to do something for my sister so I’d have to work out after work. After work I need to go and shower and change though because otherwise I smell like bagels etc. so I’m thinking I should make tomorrow one of my days off for exercise… or take my dog out for a walk at least. If anyone has any suggestions about fitting exercise in to a busy lifestyle please send them to me. This is usually why I tend to push my goals aside. x.x Sometimes they just feel unattainable.
My delicious lunch today! :D A salad with romaine lettuce, tomato, vegetarian “chicken nuggets” chopped up, garbanzo beans, and avocado. Dressing was a tbs of olive oil and some fresh lemon juice.